 I'm not dead, or retired yet. Although I needed a break from the technology circus. I've pretty much stopped playing counter-strike source.... and at the same time stopped posting on my website. I got myself an Xbox (finally!) a friend convinced me to switch... so I sold the ps3! (honestly, I couldn't stand Sony anymore... after being lied to and lost all confidence in that company.) I'm into some Forza 4 and Battlefield 3 now! I've always been a computer gamer. But costs of upgrades and constant problems just to get things working really put me off. In the end, I also hated how easy it is to cheat on a pc without getting detected... I love closed environments now like Xbox Live and Apple products... I love that little "protective cage" around their products... almost as much as I used to like to break them up. I've become a consumer. No longer trying to be "evil" or "too curious" I enjoy the ride and have every right to complain when things go FUBAR... I've found myself tired of being paranoid about my own doings and decided it would be better to settle down a bit.  I'm sure this passion will light up again in the future... It's my nature... but I needed a break from all this madness. Heck... I don't even fit the "mad" logik mold anymore... I'm rather finding myself akin to abide by the rules and just roll on with the punches. Talking about punches... Life has thrown it's fair share my way in the past year or so... I fought so much for things I believed in... and found myself in a position of being feared upon and kinda lost respect from my "ex" bosses and fellow teammates... When you always bark that things ain't right... people get afraid of the bad dog you've become...  There are things you can change... but people are not easy to deal with. When you say things out loud, people step back... I started to realize things were not worth fighting for... and at the same time, lost motivation into making them right again... Obviously, I have made some mistakes, I'm almost unmanageable and I seem to have a passion for self-destruction... But I still believe I'm the good guy trying to fight for the right things in life... I've became :  So I'll take some more time to get back on my feet, I'll get a non-technology related job where I can use my computer skills as an asset and not as my lifeline... And if boredom doesn't kill me, I might learn a thing or two about people, the way they act, and how to react appropriately. When I feel I've gain confidence back in me, my skills and my knowledge, I'll go out to tackle some more tasks.  If you think you can help me, in any ways, feel free to contact me and tell me about your way of seeing things. Thanks for your understanding, and see you in a bit. -MadLogik ps: my xbox gamertag is m4dl0g1k since someone else got madlogik :( If you're that person...please contact me, I'm sure we can make a deal if you're willing to let go of madlogik ;) I like to keep all my nicknames on all platforms the same. Oh and a few words from God himself: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference. |
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News about meposted Oct 29, 2011 2:15 PM by Mad Logik |